I’ve just completed a marathon session of answering job postings. This morning at 1:00 I responded to a position that took me almost an hour to complete. It wasn’t even a government job. It was what I would call a glamor gig. The application process was a combination of my life story, Iowa IQ testing, and Meyers & Briggs personality assessment. I would have abandoned if, it wasn’t for my curiosity of what came next. I’m almost tempted to call them to see how I did on the IQ portion. I know what I am with the Meyers Briggs.
After that posting I did another that had a glitch. After completing the entire application (20 minutes) it wouldn’t let me submit because it said my electronic signature didn’t match my name. I went back in the process to confirm I didn’t make a mistake; yes I got my name right. I played around with it for another 20 minutes before I ultimately abandoned the entire thing. I don’t want to work for a place that can’t get the digital application right. I wonder if others have had the same problem, and if they have, when will the HR person start to wonder why they haven’t received any applications. Hmmmmm?
The applying process is so often frustrating and discouraging. I know I’ve overlooked jobs because I’m being extremely critical of myself. I consciously bypassed posting I know I can do standing on my head for one no good reason or another. It wasn’t until this morning when I read a post on a dear friend of mine’s blog, informedgrad. The topic was Bullying. It’s a must read for those of us that have been bullied and those that continue to be. http://informedgrad.com/gossip-girlguy/ I’ve come to realize my hyper critical eye is a side effect of the bullying I endured in the workplace.
It’s sadly amusing how bullies never think they bully. These abusers rationalize their behavior, and convince themselves that their attempts at improving someone are just misunderstood. Better yet, some of these small people think, either the world is out to get them and they have to get the world first, or everyone is jealous of there great, talent, beauty, status… It’s all just one horrible cycle affects way to many people they touch.
After reading that post, I’m dedicating myself to not allow anyone to ever bully me again. In my next position I will look to find the one thing that can make any work environment bearable, decency and civility. I hope it’s gone the way of the hanky.
And now to bully that elliptical into submission. I shall prevail. I hope.